Killing spiders and other things your husband used to do

My new place has a lot of spiders, they seem to be appearing on a daily basis.  I finally decided to take to the internet and I was told that spraying a mixture of tea tree essential oil and water in the areas where they commonly go would get rid of them.  I tried that four weeks ago and the spider population has diminished greatly.

This is good...really really good.

All spiders who dare to enter my home get the death penalty...no judge, no jury.  I found a spider that had killed and wrapped up another spider.  I asked my older daughter whether that should get him a stay of execution, she said no, "It's a spider and it must die."  I asked my younger daughter whether I should kill a spider that kills spiders.  She thought I should take it outside...I asked for volunteers for that and there weren't any.  So the spider who was nesting in a corner of the ceiling had to meet Mr. Vacuum.

This brings me to my point...how does the newly single person deal with the things her ex used to do?
Recently my washing machine was leaking.  I knew water was coming out from under it, but not where it was coming from.  Finally, with help from my son, I pulled it away from the wall and discovered that the leak was coming from the attachment to the faucet.  I took it off, took the washer out and took it to my local hardware store where I found a new one for 99 cents.  I put the new washer in and reattached the hose.  Voila!  No more leak.  That felt really good.

I miss not being able to just tell Ex there is a problem with something and him taking care of the issue.  I don't miss him.  I'm enjoying discovering my own abilities, knowledge and YouTube videos.  With that, I don't need to keep Ex around.

I wasn't ready

Have you looked at a marriage and thought “If I was treated like that I’d leave!”  You wonder how that person can put up with that kind of treatment.  As I tell the stories of everything that led up to my marriage ending I’m sure there are a lot of people who will wonder why I stayed so long.  What kept me with him?  I can’t give anyone a clear answer other than “I wasn’t ready.”

I wasn’t ready to be the sole working parent supporting my kids and the only person responsible for them on a daily basis. 

I wasn’t ready to deal with hanging curtains, fixing the dryer, adding transmission fluid to the car, or fixing my daughter’s bed that is falling apart.

I wasn’t ready to be the only person who took sick kids to the doctor…and OMG, what if I’m the one who is sick???

I wasn’t ready to be the sole cook and bottle washer in the house.  I hate being the only one who nags the kids to clean after themselves and their cats.

Oh spiders…I hate spiders…I wasn’t ready to be the only spider killer in the house!

I’m still not ready to date but I wasn’t ready to say that being single and celibate is better than living in a miserable marriage.

It took a LONG time for me to be ready. 

Now each day I wake up and feel free…because I was ready.